Pink Sky

Some days are better than other days.



Yesterday was an example of a bad day for me. I couldn't stop shaking. For no reason whatsoever.



Trying to figure out where I am going to go and the fact I am going to have to start a new life probably got the better of me on a subconscious level.



Two days ago I was better. I felt like I was moving forward. Even though I was having an issue with internet speed( I have dial up), I was able to get information on Low-Income Housing Lotteries in NYC.



This made me feel better. Though at the present I have no income, so low income is still too much of a requirement for me, I wrote my requests for applications and sent them off into the world.

A few friends and my father have been giving me ideas and options. So far its FL or NY. The choices that I weigh are:
1.) my health. I don't do well in the heat.
2.)culture. The south is a different cultural group than the North East Coast and I am a New England girl born and bred.
3.)Family. I was really touched by my father and the offer he made and my family up here I have very little contact with...except for my 88 year old grandmother-whom I love to bits.
4.)job opportunities. That is difficult since the economy sucks so bad-believe what you want if you don't think so.
5.) Pet. Over the past 17 years I have had a cat and there were moments when I felt she was the only one who cared. She died, but now I have a new cat...Mystra. Even if I have to leave her with her brother Raja because I don't want them separated, I would need to have a cat in my life. My cat, in the past, kept me sane...
6.) Friends. I lost a lot of them over the years and I have been slowly trying to build up my "support network"- I would hate to lose them.
7.) Transportation. I don't drive, don't own a car, can't afford one...so car pooling or mass transit are things I need.
8.) and as George Carlin used to say "A place for my stuff". I have a lot of things I collected over the years, mostly my working referrance library and media-and art supplies. I have started throwing things out, but no amount of purging is going to get me to a state where I can live in a tiny, tiny place.
9.) Access to internet. I have been trying to work on my artwork & posting it on the web, so this is a "need".



And now I am praying to multiple deities and saints to help me get what I need, because I am so confused right now I can't ask for what I want.



Yesterday I posted some things on ebay. Today I was able to post a few pieces of my art on products on my Cafe press and zazzle pages. Those things made me feel like I was taking a few positive steps.



And though the sky was red this morning (the whole "red sky in morning...sailor take warning" saying) I have hopes for the day.



Maybe more opportunities will open up for me and point in the direction of possible choices I have for moving and career and a better life.



I'll keep my eyes open today, under the pink sky.